We survived...

Well, on Tuesday Abbie will be three weeks old! For the first two weeks of her life my mom, her Granmommy, was here to help us out! But last Sunday she had to head home & with a tearful goodbye we had to split ways. Eric asked me often "what are we going to do when your mom leaves?" & I replied "I don't know, but we will figure it out". I was really nervous about being on my own because it seemed like we had faced a lot of obsticles in the first two weeks. Abbie caught a cold, I had an infection in my incision which left me feeling really bad, I had an allergic reaction to the medicine for my infection, my dad got hit in the head & had to have staples and my grandmother was diagnosed with stage four lung cancer. It just seemed like a lot to deal with.

Well Eric went back to work Monday morning and Abbie & I were left on our own. And I am happy to say with some trial & error we figured it out! I'm a lot more tired during the week then on the weekends because I try my hardest not to wake Eric up in the middle of the night so he can be rested for work. But on the weekends he really tries to help me out. I have always prided myself on my organizational skills & they have never come in more handy then now! Being organzied is the only way I am surviving! Call me crazy but the only way that I can remember what time I feed her last & how many wet/dirty diapers she has had is by keeping a running list on a legal pad! Life is different but every time she stares up at me, my heart melts & I could not imagine her not being in our life!

Some things I have come to realize:

• My clean & organized house will never be the same! It has been over taken with baby items & my OCD nature to have things clean and in their own place is having to take a back seat to all of this "stuff". It is a balancing act to not get overwhelmed by my need to have my house organized & realize that the most important thing is spending time with our sweet girl.
• I won't sleep through the night again until about the year 2032...when she graduates from college. I have full on Mommy hearing that awakes to the smallest squeak, sigh or skirm. But that is okay because I am learning to live on the naps I get in between feedings!
• I will never again be without laundry to do. Almost every feeding or diaper change leads to some article of clothing needing to be washed.
• No one ever told us that burping a baby was going to be an art form that will have to be perfected and still may not prove to be fruitful. We try over the sholder, sitting up then back over the sholder then back to sitting up, massaging the back and finally we might get the burp we are looking for.

I am not going to lie & say this is easy but every minute of missed sleep is worth every time her big eyes stare at you & you feel like there is no one else but you and her around. We have a long way to go from being "organized" & "scheduled" but we are getting there! And I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband that lets me be a stay at home Mommy & take care of our precious little girl! Here are a few pictures! Now that we are catching up a little on sleep and getting things under control, it is my goal to start taking more pictures!!!